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Ah,
It's almost here, in three days, I am taking a one week vacation, to this beautiful beach.

This is most likely going to be my last trip before school starts back.

This vacation was going to be the one, where I call my crush, and tell him that I like him. But my mom incouraged me not to do this just yet.

She told me that it would be a bad idea for me to do that just yet. See, I am only 14 years old. I haven't completely figured myself out yet, so I don't think I could add someone else to my life, and things turn out how I planned.

See, I have liked this guy since I was seven years old. I am almost fifteen, so it's almost an eight year crush. I have kept this crush so long, because I really do like him. I really want it to turn out well, but since I don't know myself completely, how am I going to juggle finding myself out, and him to.

My mom incouraged me to wait just a little while, long enough to find myself out, get my life together, and then go after my crush.

I have bad dreams all the time where I dream that the day he turns eighteen, that he's going to run off and get married, and yes, I would wake up terrified. But I realized one morning, when I woke up terrified, that the guy I like is more mature, and responsable than that, and that I need to chill out, and put trust in him.

So yeah, back to it's probably going to be the last trip I take before school starts back. My school starts back in late August, and I have had a crazy summer, but it's not over yet, almost my entire family, and some people, who I have never met, who aren't my family are going on this trip, I think we have a total of fifteen people going on this trip. Crazy ha? Lol.

Well, I feel better, after getting all of that off my chest. I just felt like writing a post, I will take lots of pictures while I am there, maybe even film a couple of videos. My dad didn't want to come to the beach with us, so trying to get him to come I told him I was going to find a smokin' hot, tan, shirtless beach boy, and lock lips with him, but of course I'm not going to do that. I am going to take my picture with a cute guy, because that would be enough to scare my dad, so that he will come on the next trip with us.

Anyway, I am going to go, I will try and post some pictures from my trip.

XOXO,
Danielle.